138 – Signs of Depletion: When Your Body is Running on Empty

This episode shares some common and less common signs of depletion as part of a series on herbal support for depletion and fatigue.

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Welcome to the Frontline Herbalism Podcast with your host, Nicole Rose, from the

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This is your place for all things plants and

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liberation.

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Let's get started.

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Hello. Welcome back to the Frontline Herbalism podcast.

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Oh, I think I was very sad in the last episode.

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My baby boy had just broken his arm.

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And don't get me wrong, the first two weeks were ******* horrific.

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Or the first week was awful.

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Awful in terms of pain and inflammation and

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not sleeping properly and, like, adapting to the cast.

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Oh, it was grim.

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And then, thankfully, I think as the fracture turned a corner, he started kind of putting

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weight on it and running around and bouncing around and stuff.

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So that was nice.

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But,

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yeah, had to keep him off nursery and then decided to risk taking him back to nursery

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because I was just.

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Yeah, he was just basically living his best

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life, running around,

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like.

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And then we talked about it of, like, it

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didn't seem too worrying if he fell over, he wasn't in pain, stuff like that.

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And then, yeah, within, like, two days of going back to nursery, he had a ******* virus.

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Even though he might have caught it at a, like, Ming in soft play Western super mare,

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where baby dad's in rehab.

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So anyway,

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my poor baby was sent off for another week,

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getting very bored at home.

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And then, yeah, he's finally back at nursery today.

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Yeah, because there's a ******* bank holiday.

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These bank holidays just kill me.

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Like, when you are literally looking after your child on your own most of the time, and

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then the nursery's closed.

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Like, he only goes in the mornings, like, four days a week.

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But it just is so recharging for me to be able to work and do stuff that when that's not

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possible, like, oof.

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Yeah, it's tough.

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I don't know how people are stay at home,

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parents, honestly, huge respect to you.

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I just.

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I don't know if I could do it anyway.

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Maybe we'll get easier as he's bigger.

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Anyway, he's doing well.

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The cast is working off so we can celebrate.

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And some exciting things happened this month.

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I did a workshop with this weaving remembrance

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course, which was ******* dreamy.

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What a bunch of babes that were making that

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happen and people who participated.

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So, yeah, it was called Remedies for Solidarity.

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And we looked at examples of herbalism and resistance, like, historically and more

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recently.

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And, yeah, it was just like, super, super N.

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they're republishing.

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So that went super well.

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There was like, 20 odd thousand like dollars

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of people pre ordering, like 400 and something people pre ordered.

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I mean I did like graft with the Instagram and stuff but like hell man, it, yeah, I don't get

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like that much like external feedback sometimes about the impact in the world.

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Like I get loads of lush emails from people but like,

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yeah, it was nice for me to be like people really ******* connect the dots, you know,

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between like herbalism and social struggles and how we can use herbalism in these

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different ways beyond like one to one care.

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So yeah, that was like super, super nice and thank you so much if you pre ordered the book.

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So yeah, I think that's all of the updates.

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I'm like this every *******, every time I launch it I just get the jitters of like no

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one's gonna join it and then it's always fine.

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Like it just,

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you know, enables all the care packages, enables all the books for prisoners and now

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it's like funding these group programmes and the Black Flag Herbal Clinic.

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So it's like, oh, the stakes are really high financially.

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Feel like my outgoings are like bigger than ever because I have an amazing dispensing

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assistant now because I just couldn't keep on top of it.

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And I'm also paying like £500amonth extra for extra childcare.

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So yeah, and that's only like 6 hours extra support a week, which I need but like to just

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stop myself having a breakdown.

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But yeah, it's just a lot.

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So yeah, I always have this kind of like pre course jitters.

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So if you want to join it, please join the waiting list because that would mean a lot to

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If you are someone that is going to join at the like standard or salt, you know, or

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all this sliding scale stuff is on the page.

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But so yeah, I am doing a little series all

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about herbalism for depletion and probably ironic because I'm feeling very depleted

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actually.

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Am I feeling.

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Yeah, I think nervous system wise.

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It's just been really full on the last like six Weeks because of Lee's breaking his arm

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and everything else and being a single mom and all the things.

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But it's just something I see all the ******* time in my clinical practise when I'm

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supporting people.

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And yeah, I just also just see it everywhere in the world of how people are just running on

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empty and yeah, I wanna, I wanna talk about it.

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So I've been feeling quite passionate about it recently.

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I've been writing a lot of Instagram captions and yeah, I'm gonn a little podcast series.

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So this episode today is about kind of like signs of depletion.

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So when you feel like your body is running on empty.

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And then I'm going to do an episode about yeah, specific herbal support for fatigue.

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And then we're going to look at the role of stimulating herbs and when they are

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appropriate and definitely not appropriate.

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And then we're going to look at nerve tonics and how do we sort of, yeah, support ourselves

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and then like yeah, nourishing herbs for recovery from states of depletion.

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And then I'm going to do a shiny crafting herbal protocols for fatigue.

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So I'm going to go talk through like how I would put together a protocol for someone who

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was experiencing this kind of level of depletion.

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And I think I'm.

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I was really nervous of promising I shouldn't

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have promised all those podcast episodes because I'll probably jinx it now and then I

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won't be able to do it and then I'll have to come on here with the tail between my legs and

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apologise.

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But I'm going to do my ******* best.

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So let's just see how we get on.

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Like I mentioned in the last episode, the podcast, it just has to come at the bottom of

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the.

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Which is so sad but that's because my clients have.

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Well, my child has to come first.

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But then, you know, my clinical practise is

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really supporting like humans going through it.

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So I try and give that as much attention as possible.

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And then all the other sold out apothecary things are yeah, very demanding as well.

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So. But anyway, I'm going to stop talking and I hope you enjoy this.

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Yeah, this episode about signs of depletion,

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I guess just,

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just covering my bases here.

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Like this **** is ******* complicated and

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there's like a million and one causes of someone being depleted.

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And I guess this podcast is for people who are mostly listening to the show like in the so

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called UK or the so called us.

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Like obviously if like you are *******, you Know,

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a refugee in France or living in ******* Sudan or living in Gaza.

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Like, of course you are going to be depleted when there is like literal like famine that is

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like, you know, structurally created by Israel.

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But like, I'm just trying to say that, like, yeah, this, I guess the kind of like tone

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around depletion is for people,

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you know, like living in like, yeah, like I said, the UK or the US or Western Europe or

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whatever who are like primarily the people that listen to this podcast.

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But yeah, I just want to name that, like, depletion is like a driving force of

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capitalism and people are experiencing that harm in much more like severe and dramatic

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ways than, you know, someone here.

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But I also want to acknowledge like the, yeah, the ******* life changing, horrendous effects

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of chronic illness and.

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Yeah, and states of depletion for any human,

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wherever they are.

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Does that make sense? Anyway, okay, I'm going to stop talking.

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Yeah, have a listen, let me know your thoughts.

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And yeah, please sign up to the waiting list if you get a moment.

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Okay, goodbye.

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Hello.

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All right, so let's get stuck in to signs of depletion.

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And I guess I just want to say that like, depletion isn't a kind of like diagnosis.

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Like, it's not like there is a metric of, okay, your vitamin D levels are like this low,

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therefore you are depleted.

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Do you know what I mean? Like, it's more of a kind of like,

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I guess a cultural phase phrase to kind of describe an experience which I think is a very

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******* human experience.

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But it's something I see like over and over

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and over again in my kind of clinical practise, but also just like in the spaces I'm

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in.

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Whether that's like mums, especially single mums or whether that's, you know, organiser

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types, carers.

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Like there is this kind of like feeling of

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being depleted.

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So, yeah, there isn't kind of like one definition but you know, it is very much often

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associated with our feelings, like our subjective feelings of like, energy.

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So, you know, we might use words like exhausted or burnt out,

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but it doesn't necessarily mean depletion.

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But I think they are obviously like very, very

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connected.

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And I guess before I dive into all of these examples, I think what is interesting about

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depletion is that you can still be like extremely quote unquote, like high

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functioning.

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Like you can be someone who is doing a ******* PhD, who's running a massive campaign, who's

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looking after six kids.

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You can be someone that hasn't hit that point

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of collapse or chronic illness or disease and still be really operating from a place of

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depletion.

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And I think in our kind of like, capitalist society, we've also, like normalised states of

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depletion because it feels like a ******* luxury to stop, right?

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And a lot of the time it is a serious luxury.

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Like, there is a massive level of privilege there in terms of being able to actually

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attune to our body's needs of like,

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hey, I,

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you know, don't need to ******* sell my labour to survive today.

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Like, not many people are in that position.

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So.

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Yeah, so I. But I just want to say before I give these examples, like, not everyone has

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this, like,

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intense expression of like, debilitating chronic illness.

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Like, sometimes people are operating in a way that is like coming from this really deep,

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deep, deep sense of depletion.

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Even though they're still kind of like,

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yeah, I hate the word functioning, but you know what I mean?

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Like, they're still somehow participating in this society in this kind of often very

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unsustainable way.

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Mostly out of necessity.

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Yeah. So, okay, so I guess that comes to the first point, which is, yeah, like, energy.

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And I think the relationship between depletion and energy often shows up as kind of like a

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pattern of often, like, crashes.

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So someone doesn't have the kind of like,

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stamina or endurance to kind of maintain like some level of like, energetic exertion that

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they could perhaps previously.

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So,

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for example, it might be that back in the day you could organise some sort of event and,

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you know, the next day get up and go to work.

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And now you might organise the same event.

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You know, you might be cooking something nice at the social centre or whatever, but the next

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day you're like, absolutely smashed and you don't have the energy to do anything likewise,

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for example, you might do like a work call or some sort of organising call, and then

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afterwards be like completely, like cognitively drained and socially depleted.

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Whereas before you could do like three of these calls, like back to back of an

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afternoon.

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Do you know what I mean? So it's like something about our bandwidth has

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changed and there is often this kind of crashing pattern as well.

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Or you start to.

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You start to really get nervous about managing your energy.

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Like in kind of disability justice world, there's this concept of spoons which I'm sure

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a lot of people listening will have heard of.

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But it's like you only have so many spoons a day, so it's like take, you know, having a

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friend visit might take like two of your spoons, which means you don't have the energy

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to then cook dinner or have a shower.

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Does that make sense? So, yeah, you start to kind of like, ration

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your capacity.

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And I think that's where a lot of, like,

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fatigue becomes protective.

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Like, I was drafting a.

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Drafting an Instagram caption the other day about this, but, like,

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I might have already published it anyway.

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I've got, like a fancy scheduler tool now, so

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I'm like, not even aware of, like, when I post things anymore.

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But.

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So, yeah, when we don't have the kind of

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energy or sort of like,

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nervous system capacity to cope with something,

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the body will kind of like trigger all these protective mechanisms to keep itself safe.

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And I think one of them is like,

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you know, for example, around, like, socialising, like when you find it difficult

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being around other humans because they sort of.

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They feel like threatening to your nervous system,

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we might then develop social anxiety so that we're not encountering that kind of, like,

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trigger as much, if that makes sense.

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But not just the anxiety, we might also develop fatigue.

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So then it's like, I can't actually go out and like,

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socialise or go to that event because my body has such limited reserves.

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It's like protecting itself and it's like creating all these other mechanisms to do

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that.

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Does that make any sense at all?

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But yeah, basically, maybe I'm going off point, but I just wanted to say that, like, I

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think fatigue is a really big sign of depletion and sometimes when we address the

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other causes of fatigue, that we maybe have a little bit more control over, like nutritional

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deficiencies or the kind of functioning of our mitochondria,

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other things that we think are not connected might lift.

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Like, we might feel more socially resourced to go out, to hang out with people, to socialise

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at work or whatever.

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And I think that's like, yeah, kind of like one of the interesting things about herbalism

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is, like, how,

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yeah, everything is, like, really connected.

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And you think,

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right, I'm just like, severely depressed, so therefore I can't do X, Y and Z. But then it's

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like you have vacuum vitamin B12.

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And then actually it's like, oh, I don't have

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actually feel depressed.

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Like, I actually have the energy to, like, organise or whatever.

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And again, I know depression is like a massive thing and we could have,

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you know, multiple podcasts about it.

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I'm not narrowing it down to one thing, but

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I'm just saying that our drivers of depletion can be,

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yeah, very intersectional and have lots of, like, interconnected things.

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And by kind of addressing One thing that might have a kind of positive effect on the other

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things.

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Does that make any sense?

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Okay, so yeah, so I've mentioned stamina and energy and fatigue and Yeah, I guess just

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coming just like the last thing on this is like it's something about proportionality of

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like I think any human would be fatigued after a really long day at work.

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Do you know what I mean? Like it's not normal for human beings to have

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to sit in front, in front of a screen or do endless stuff for like a 10 hour workday or

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more.

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You know, I used to work like 14 hour shifts as a carer and stuff.

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It's like it's very normal to be ******* knackered after that level of like output

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where it's like, you know, going to the supermarket and doing like a small little

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shop, like if that's enough to like floor you,

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then like that is like much more of an expression of like chronic illness.

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Does that make sense? And I don't want to have like oh my God,

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sorry.

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Political stuff has so many *******

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disclaimers.

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But I don't want to set like an ableist baseline.

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I'm just trying to communicate what is like quote unquote normal for you.

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Not as like societal normal and this kind of like conditioned ableist culture.

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But like what is your baseline for your body and your needs and when that starts to change,

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what are you observing and is that communicating like a sign of depletion?

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So another thing that really gets knocked out when people are struggling depletion wise is

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immune system stuff, right? So it's like the kind of resilience shifts.

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Like it might be that you get a kind of cold or kind of like a more generic virus.

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I don't mean like something really hardcore like *******, you know, like a full on Covid

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strain or something.

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But I just mean like your common cold.

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It might be that like back in the day you could recover after like a few days, whereas

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now it might take like six weeks.

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Do you know what I mean?

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And I think that's communicating that the body is like struggling in terms of reserves or.

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Yeah, things like even just recovery from things like exercise.

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Like me and my friend Kev in prison, we're talking about.

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Yeah. How he would normally do like 100 ******* burpees or whatever because he's like

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pretty intense about training.

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But like that would be his baseline normal and

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that wouldn't really knock him out.

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But then when he's kind of in that like viral post viral recovery period, he just, you know,

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he can do three and then he's out.

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He would hate me for saying he could do three.

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I'm sure he would do more than that.

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He'd do like 50 or something.

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But his baseline would alter and he would

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struggle to recover.

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Yeah, I feel like people probably know what all of that means, so I'll move on.

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So the other sneaky thing that people come to me all the time about is brain fog.

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So again, everyone has a different baseline.

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Maybe someone has had a sensation of kind of

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brain fog or they've struggled with concentration like most of their life and for

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them it's not really a red flag because it's their kind of normal.

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But for other people, especially if they've got kind of like some level of like

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intellectual labour, like they, you know, are a writer or a designer or whatever,

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when that changes and they have this like, they're struggling to concentrate,

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like that's a really life changing, difficult thing for them.

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And that is like one of the main things that people come to me about is like they just are

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not coping with the kind of brain fog.

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And again, brain fog could be a massive podcast episode with like a thousand things

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that can contribute to it.

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And I hate to say, But I think B12 is top of the list.

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But anyway,

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I think that kind of like cognitive decline in terms of your own baseline, like, can often be

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a real sign of depletion.

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Connected to that is kind of like nervous system stuff.

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I know I've talked about anxiety and fatigue a little bit, but it's something around your

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nerves feeling frayed and you feeling like an increased sensitivity to the world.

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So I mentioned, you know, the supermarket example.

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And then you see all these like funny reels on Instagram that are like, I used to spend my

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like 20s, like in basements of drug dealers, like, or whatever, and now I get a panic

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attack going, going in the supermarket.

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And like, there's no accident that that's the trajectory because I think we use a lot of our

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body's resources, like over time.

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And one part of that is this like chronic

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activation of the stress response, which, you know, fundamentally will keep humans alive

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their whole life.

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But we do see a kind of like,

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like weakening of our systems when they are kind of like overused, if that makes sense.

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And I think that's why,

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you know,

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bang.

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You can in prison as a teenager.

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And that's a very different experience if you've already had like 20 ******* years of

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intense chronic stress and intense activation, rather than if you have had more of a kind of

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like Nourishing, happy childhood without much stress.

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And then you end up in a stressful situation as an adult.

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You're much less likely to have the kind of like hardcore negative effects of that

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experience.

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I mean, I don't mean in terms of like, you know,

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most people that go to prison will develop PTSD from prison, but I just mean that

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resilience like, and that capacity to withstand stress.

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Like, yes,

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people get strong and amazing who've been through traumatic ****.

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Don't get me wrong, like I have, you know, read all this stuff about post traumatic

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growth and all this stuff, but like ultimately like you are starting from a different

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position when you've had like a really ******* full on childhood and all of those systems in

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your body have been under stress.

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You know, all of the magnesium reserves and B vitamin reserves and iron reserves, like

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they've all, you know, they all are depleted by the stress response.

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So when we have chronic activation of our stress response, we are on a trajectory

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towards depletion.

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Unless we ******* live like a ******* athlete where we're like constantly,

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you know, supported by a bunch of people and nourishing ourselves with like amazing

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nutrition and supplements and wild berries and roots and all of these things.

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And that's why I'm always ******* banging on about how amazing herbalism is because it can

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give us this like extra boost in helping people like survive this ******* world.

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Do you know what I mean?

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Okay, I feel like I'm blathering on, but yeah, so, yeah, so increased sensitivity to

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stimulation in general, but also to noise and to stress.

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It's like,

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yeah, like something that used to be fine is now like completely intolerable.

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Like I remember when, for example, I've had like loved ones die and I'm in that, that like

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really intense, like exhausted, depleted, can't get good quality sleep, full of

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cortisol,

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like level of like intense stress response and exhaustion.

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And then it's like you can't ******* park your car.

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Do you know what I mean? And I'm really good at driving but like you

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can't ******* park it because you're so overwhelmed.

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And then you just like burst into tears and you have this row of cars behind you being

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impatient.

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And it's like something you used to cope with

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fine is now completely ******* unbearable.

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And I think that is such a sign of,

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yeah, just ******* depletion and running out of ******* capacity.

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Okay, so we've got a couple more.

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So yeah, I've talked about fatigue, but I just want to talk briefly about sleep.

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I think like sleep for Humans is like our recharging system, right?

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Like, it's a ******* genius mechanism to restore our energy.

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It's when our tissues start repairing themselves.

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It's when our digestion really gets to, like, focus on what it's doing.

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Like,

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sleep is like the ******* lifeline to sustaining ourselves in this world.

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And there are like a thousand things that can affect quality of sleep.

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And I'm going to do a series all about sleep soon.

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But when you are actually getting enough sleep but it is not restoring you,

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that is a red flag to me that, like, there's something else going on.

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Whether that's like chronic inflammation that's using your reserves, whether that is

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like a depletion of like, vital kind of vitamins and minerals in the body, or whether

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that's like the, you know, the mitochondria and like, cellular health going like wonky,

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like, which is a clinical term, by the way.

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But anyway.

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But like,

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if I see someone and they're like, I feel depleted and I have no energy and I'm like,

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how much sleep are you getting? And they're like, like four hours a night.

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I'm just like, no, Sherlock, of course you feel like death because we're not getting

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enough sleep.

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So then, you know, I'm supporting them with

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sleep herbs and nervous system support through the day, addressing inflammation, all the

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things.

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And then if they start sleeping longer and then feel refreshed,

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we are in like a good position.

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Do you know what I mean?

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In terms of chronic illness recovery and everything else,

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if someone starts having actually quite long periods of deep quality sleep, but they're not

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waking up feeling refreshed, that's like I said, that's my red flag of like, okay, what

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else is going on here that is depleting this person's energy?

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Because, yeah, sleep is meant to be that thing that nourishes us.

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And, yeah, I will talk about sleep a lot more soon.

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Okay. A couple of other things, like, oh, my God, like, thyroid stuff could just be a whole

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other ******* series.

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But like,

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if you are,

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yeah, feeling like if you're kind of like thermoregulation, like your body temperature

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stuff goes a bit awry,

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that's often a red flag for me in terms of changes from your baseline, basically.

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Like, if you are starting to experience the cold much more or you're starting to be very

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intolerant to heat when you used to be, okay, these are kind of signs that something in our

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kind of like,

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internal dynamics is kind of like changing off our baseline and can often be a sign of

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deficiency, you know, often related to our thyroid.

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But again there's like a million and one things that can drive this stuff.

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But when people come to me who are feeling like really, really cold, that's often a sign

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to me that like they are depleted.

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Like I remember when I had all this chronic

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illness stuff in my like late 20s, before I did my clinical training and you know, it was

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a major driver for me to like do my clinical training.

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But I'm like such a warm bodied person.

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Like if I didn't have a baby that I had to

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care about his temperature, like I would just be so happy never putting the heating on.

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Like I'm always feeling pretty good temperature wise.

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Like when we used to work in the mobile clinic in Calais, like all the team would be

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struggling,

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they wouldn't be able to be able to open dressings or like do all this stuff because of

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the cold and I'd just be like in a hoodie like bouncing around.

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But when I was sick I got so cold, do you know what I mean?

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I had hot water bottles, I was like, I had to get the to Bristol once and it was like

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******* unbearable.

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Like I felt like that cold was like ice to my body and that was like such a sign that I was

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like tapped out, you know what I mean? I was just running on ******* empty, which I

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was when you know, we got all the bloods back and everything else.

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But yeah, like I think this kind of temperature sensitivity is very interesting in

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terms of digestion.

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You would think if you're struggling for energy that you would start eating more food

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and that can be the case.

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For example,

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you have a really heavy period, like maybe you just start craving like carbs and things more

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like.

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That makes a lot of sense.

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But in my experience I'm much more likely to see people that have kind of like lost their

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appetites.

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Like there's this kind of like it's like, like their kind of hunger response is like

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flattened, if that makes sense.

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And that's maybe because they don't have the

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energy to cook.

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So it's like easier physiologically to just turn off,

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excuse me, turn off that desire for food than it is to like feel hungry, have the energy to

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cook a meal.

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Does that make sense?

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Or the fatigue is creating a like low output in the body.

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So then we're not needing like as much food even though we are actually needing food.

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And when people start eating well again, no Sherlock, they will feel better.

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But you know, capitalism, our societies aren't set up for people experiencing chronic

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Illness.

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And I'm sure all my friends with chronic

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illness, if they had someone that could just come and cook them a nourishing meal, that

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they would eat a lot better.

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But when they have to do that themselves three times a day, that becomes, like,

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insurmountable as a challenge.

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So anyway, side note.

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Okay,

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Right. So, yeah, I just want to say that, like,

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there are so many causes of what experiences,

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what,

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like, contributes to someone feeling depleted.

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And obviously clinical herbalism, like, there would be like a big investigation into all the

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different kind of drivers of that.

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So nutritional deficiencies, chronic illness,

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like hormonal, endocrine things,

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metabolism, infection, like, you know, maybe it's a side effect to medication, maybe it's

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like a sleep issue.

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Like, there are all different things.

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But I guess I just want to come back to this kind of stress response because I think it's

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the thing that I see as, like, the biggest driver of depletion.

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Because when we have periods of like, intense ******* chronic stress, they pretty much

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guaranteed to end with some sort of period of exhaustion.

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And when maybe you're younger, you do have more capacity to bounce back from that.

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But when I think you get older,

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your innate reserves to bounce back just aren't there in the same way.

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You know, it's like, I don't drink alcohol, but like, hell, if I went out on a night out

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now,

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which feels impossible childcare wise, but if I did, I'm sure it would take me like a week

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to recover from the hangover.

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Whereas back in the day, you, you know, you're

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just bouncing around the next day.

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So it's like, it does change with age, obviously, but it also changed with, like,

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things that kind of like age us, like chronic stress, if that makes sense, and things we've

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been through.

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But yeah, this kind of like intense nervous system activation, like, it does rinse our,

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our reserves in our body in terms of, like, our minerals, like magnesium, for example,

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just ******* plummets, like, when people are chronically stressed.

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So that's why nearly everyone I see, I'm just like,

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get yourself in an Epsom salt bath, like, as many times as you can every week.

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Like, we just need as much magnesium in you as possible.

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Um,

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okay, so I think I've blathered enough about depletion,

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I guess.

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I want you to think about, like, what are your

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personal signs that you're feeling depleted? Like, is it that your sleep goes wonky?

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Is it that you lose, like, your social capacity to be around other people?

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Does your appetite change?

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Like, you know, is it your immune Resilience, like what is it in your body that flags to you

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that like you are starting to run on empty? Because I think the sooner we can kind of

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intervene been like the better position we're in.

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And yeah, this is something that I talk about in the herbalism, PTSD and traumatic stress

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course is like there's a whole ******* module, actually.

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There's two modules about like nerve tonics.

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No, sorry.

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There's two modules about nervines, so herbs

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with an affinity for the nervous system.

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But there's one like big focus on nerve tonics, which are herbs that help kind of

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restore the proper like functioning and communication and kind of tissue health of the

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nervous system.

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And these herbs have multiple like effects on the body.

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And I've, you know, recorded other episodes about nerve tonics historically.

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But like, basically the things I've been talking about today, like all of these signs

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of depletion are when I would like pull in the nerve tonics.

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And you know, I don't want to say I work with them, with everyone, but I'm just saying like

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most people who come to my clinic have been through some level of like gnarly trauma or

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state violence or just trying to survive in capitalism, which I think is traumatic for

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most people.

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But like,

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yeah, there's this like long term chronic activation of the stress response or you know,

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people have been through like a physiological event that has made them really depleted.

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Like I'm two and a half years postpartum and I'm feeling like quite good.

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But that is because I have ******* paid attention to like my nutrition, my energy

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reserves, like taking, you know, the sec, like literally like within an hour of giving birth,

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I was taking like a tonic.

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But recovery from pregnancy and childbirth.

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So it's like,

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you know, I was quite frightened about like this postpartum impact because I have just

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seen it again in my clinical practise of people that are,

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yeah, really, really affected by such a huge kind of biological event like pregnancy but,

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you know, don't have to be pregnant to be ******* depleted.

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Like there's all sorts of things like periods of intense chronic stress.

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Maybe a chronic illness, you know, that's like knocked you for ******* six.

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Like Covid, for example, has such massive effects on our mitochondria, on our kind of,

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of energy powerhouses, on our body.

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So, yeah, so anyway, I hope you are not feeling depleted but if you've resonated with

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anything in this episode,

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yeah,

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seek some support if you can.

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Like the herbalism, PTSD and traumatic stress

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course is open for enrolment very, very soon on the 20th of September, so you can join the

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waiting list.

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No one is turned away for lack of funds.

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So if you want to learn how to work with

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herbs, to address like depletion, to support your energy, to nourish yourself, like there's

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a who section about like nourishing herbs, nutritive herbs,

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then I think you'll love it.

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Anyway, I will be back soon.

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Okay, take care.

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Thanks so much for listening to the Frontline Herbalism Podcast.

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You can find the transcript, the links, all the resources from the show@solidarity

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apothecary.org podcast.